The girl was crying too, not loudly, but in the steady, exhausted way of someone who had been crying for a long time and ran out of energy before she ran out of fear, and she kept pressing a damp cloth to the baby’s lips as if she could coax life back into him through patience alone.
“Please,” she whispered to the baby, “please drink, please, please.”
Owen lowered himself to the floor slowly so he would not scare her, and he spoke the way you speak when you want your voice to be a hand held out in the dark.
“Hi, sweetheart. I’m Owen. You called for help, and you did the right thing.”
The girl blinked at him through wet lashes, as if she was trying to decide whether adults still knew how to mean what they said.
“He’s Rowan,” she managed, shifting the baby carefully, “and he’s my brother, but I watch him when Mom is sleeping, because Mom’s always tired.”
Owen’s eyes moved across the room without looking away from her for too long, because he saw empty bottles lined up near the sink, some filled with water, some with a thin, pale liquid, and on the floor near the couch lay an old phone with a video paused on the screen, the title big enough for him to read: “How to feed a baby when you don’t have help.”
A seven-year-old had been teaching herself how to be a parent.
“Where is your mom right now?” Owen asked gently.
Juni lifted her chin toward a hallway that looked darker than the living room, as if the shadows had gathered there.
“In her room,” she said, swallowing hard, “she said she just needed a nap, but it’s been a long time, and I didn’t want to bother her, and I tried, I really tried, but he keeps getting lighter.”
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