The night you decide to go back to the apartment, you do not announce it like a grand romance. You simply call Obinna and say, “Are you home?”
There is a pause. “Yes.”
“I’m coming over.”
Another pause, shorter this time. “Okay.”
When you arrive, the place looks almost the same as on your wedding night, except cleaner, sadder, stripped of flowers and illusion. The cake is gone. Your shoe has been placed neatly by the hall table. He has repaired the loose cabinet door you always complained about.
You stand in the doorway a moment too long.
Then he says, “Do you want tea?”
And because life is absurd and healing is never cinematic for long, you laugh.
“Yes.”
You talk for hours that night. Not about the case. Not about corruption. About you. About marriage. About what honesty costs and what it buys. You tell him there will be no more protective lies. No more choosing your feelings for you. He agrees before you finish the sentence. You tell him trust is not a wound he gets to declare healed because he has apologized enough. He says he knows. You tell him if he ever hides another life-changing truth out of fear, you will leave so hard his ancestors will hear the door. That one makes him actually smile.
Then he says, “Can I tell you something without trying to earn anything from it?”
You nod.
“The first time I saw your face clearly, I cried in the pharmacy parking lot.”
You blink.
He looks embarrassed. “Not because of your scars. Because I realized how much pain you had carried into every room with me, and how carefully you had still loved. I thought, if she ever lets me keep any place in her life after this, I must become worth that mercy.”
You look at him for a long time.
“That,” you say softly, “is the first romantic thing you’ve said in months that hasn’t made me want to throw a spoon at you.”
“I’m glad we’re progressing.”
You do not move back into the bedroom that night.
But you stay.
Later, months later, much later, there is a different kind of night.
Rain at the windows. Laundry folded badly because he insists he is good at it and you insist he is a criminal. A lamp left on in the living room. You are standing by the bookshelf in one of his shirts, looking for a music notebook, when he comes behind you and rests his chin lightly on your shoulder.
Not possessive. Not demanding. Just there.
“Can I ask you something?” he says.
“You already are.”
He huffs a laugh.
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