She exhaled.
“I ran into Jenna at the grocery store,” she said. “She looked awful. She told me she’s been trying to have kids. Miscarriage after miscarriage. She kept saying God was punishing her. So I asked, ‘For what?’ And she told me.”
Of course, Jenna thought it was punishment.
Of course, my mother hunted down proof.
I felt like the floor had tilted.
“You let me choose you over my parents,” I said to my husband, “without giving me all the facts.”
He flinched. “I didn’t let you—”
“Yes,” I snapped. “You did. You took away my choice.”
My mom’s voice softened. “We were wrong, too. For cutting you off. For not reaching out. We thought we were protecting you, but we were protecting our image. I’m sorry.”
I didn’t have space in my head for her apology yet.
I put the papers on the table. My hands were steady.
“I need you to leave,” I said to my husband.
His chin trembled. “Where am I supposed to go?”
I laughed once, sharp.
“That’s what I had to figure out at 17,” I said. “I’m sure you’ll manage.”
“Don’t do this,” he said. “We have a life. A child. Please.”
“I had a right to know who I was choosing. You lied on day one. Everything after grew out of that lie.”
I went to our bedroom and pulled out a suitcase.
That time, I wasn’t a scared teenager.
I packed for myself and our son. Clothes. Important papers. His favorite stuffed dinosaur.
Our son was at a friend’s place.
On the drive over, I practiced what I’d say. “Hey, buddy, we’re going to stay at Grandma and Grandpa’s for a bit.”
He’d never even met them.
When I came back out with the suitcase, my husband looked wrecked. My mom was silent, tears on her face.
I set the suitcase by the door.
“I loved you,” I said to him. “More than was healthy. I gave up my family, my future, my education. I never regretted it. Not once. Because I thought you were honest with me.”
“I love you,” he choked.
“Love without truth is nothing.”
I walked out. I picked up our son.
Told him we were going on a “sleepover” at Grandma and Grandpa’s.
He was excited in the way only kids can be.
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